Stephanie´s ickle world

CBB and my five cents on reality shows

2012-01-25T07:05:00.000-08:00

After watching the "big fight" on CBB I wanted to share my
thoughts on the show and other reality tv.

In general I am someone that likes new ideas as well as creativity.
As a result I wouldn't dismiss a tv / reality show before I have
watched it. Sadly more and more shows make me nothing more
than shake my head. What is it that makes tv producers think that
there has to be more bitching, fighting and revolting situations
every time a new season of I 'm A Celeb, CBB or the german show
DSDS comes out ? Is that really what interests people? Is that really
what reflects popular culture or even society these days ? Poor
teenagers that are fed with these bizzare images instead of
something that gives them something to think about or even
inspires them.

Even further playing dumb seems to be the new little black dress.
Being a grown woman I seriously can't imagine that the stupidity
of shows like The Kardashians, Simple Life or The Only Way
Is Essex is real. Which in my eyes makes it even more sad to me that
these people seem to sell their whole personality as well as intellect
for money and their 15 minutes of fame. My wish would be to still
keep these shows going and even create new ones. But this time
around with what you could call substance.

Wishlist for London

2011-12-25T00:13:00.000-08:00

I´m more than excited to have a trip to London soon and have
a mental wishlist of things that I want to have a look at.

Love the print on the Project D scarf and doubt that I will be able
to resist buying one. ( ... In general I hope that there might be a
project D sale in February ;-). )

HAVE to buy seasons 3 and 4 of Belle De Jour with Billie Piper.
Love that show and can´t wait to watch new episodes.

Want to update my spring wardrobe so I hope that I will find
some new tops / shirts and maybe even shoes.

As I love reading I just can´t believe how big the Waterstones
bookstore at Picadilly is and can´t wait to have a look around
for new books.

As I am officially a makeup addict and there are different
brands in different countries on sale I can feel a visit to Boots
and Superdrug coming up. Also I might have a look at
the MAC counter ...

It´s going to be the birthday of my boyfriend and sister
after that so I might have a look out for their presents as well.

But most of all I am meeting up with some very sweet girls
and can´t wait to spend a wonderful day with them.

Frohe Weihnachten :-)

2011-12-25T00:03:00.001-08:00

How do you celebrate Christmas ?

2011-12-14T10:45:00.000-08:00

As long as I can remember I was loving Christmas. The fact that the entire family

was meeting up and I was allowed to stay up late was enough to get me excited as

a child.

On the 23rd we always put up our tree and the three girls of my family ( Mama, my little sister and me ) decorate it. In most years I am keeping up the „tradition“ of breaking anornament.

On the 24th we visit the church together at about 6 o'clock. Adittedly the song

Silent Night always makes me cry.

When we were little the wait started now.... Until the „Christkind“ rang it's bell.

Only then we were allowed in the living room again and saw our presents that

suddenly appeared under our tree.

These days we simply put the presents under the tree when we decorade at the 23rd.

For dinner we often eat fish, cheese and fresh bread on Christmas Eve …and of course lots of christmas cookies and champagne.

The next day we mostly have a big family lunch with dumplings, goose and

red cabbage.

Christmas is celebrated a bit different everywhere. So I would be curious

to read how you spend yours.

Gratitude List

2011-12-03T23:21:00.000-08:00

My personal gratitude list of the ten things I was thankful for in 2011.

1) Having had the most wonderful boss in Jan/Feb and the enitre family
helping me out with this mini job. Olli you rock big time !!!

2) Being hired for a part time job.

3) Having seen the Les Folie show. A night that I will never forget.
After being a Kylie fan for more than 20 years seeing Kylie perform
was a dream come true.

4) Having a faithful boyfriend that I know I can trust even we live
apart at the moment. Love you babe.

5) Having had a trip to the zoo with my entire family and my boyfriend
for my birthday. Nothing better than elephants and kangas ;-).

6) Being able to spend Christmas with my parents, my sister and
my boyfriend soon. Such a special time of the year and I am happy
to have you all in my life. Oma I will miss you for the rest of my life.

7) I am thankful for my friends. No matter if they are close, far, online or
or in my life daily. I love you all for being a gang of such lovely and slightly
mad people ;-).

8) Lou being so sweet to buy a copy of My Style and getting it signed
for me. Thank you to Lou and Dannii for that :-).

9 ) Being healthy, having enought to eat, not having to face any war,
crime or conflicts

10) Being able to make plans and having things to look forward to.
So can´t wait for February to arrive. London here I come whop :-).

My favourite Christmas songs

2011-11-28T10:42:00.000-08:00

Dannii Minogue - I'll Be Home For Christmas
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mhMefJAFkIU

Mariah Carey - All I Want For Christmas Is You
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MDp4uCWm9_s

Liz McClarnon & Antony Costa - White Christmas
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wkvF-UDIQoY

Christina Aguilera & Brian McKnight - Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ftva4G2vmDw

Kelly Clarkson - Oh holy night
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7e3FX2EkOkI

Kylie Minogue - Santa Baby
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ib8H9aea0UM

And last but not least the most wonderful christmas song
for me that gets me crying every year.

Dresdner Kreuzchor: Stille Nacht (Silent night)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WxrBhZvvSIQ

Letter To My 16 Year Old Self

2011-11-27T10:20:00.000-08:00

Dear me ...

The first thing I want to tell you is that times will change.
No matter how hard things seem to be. It will get better.
People that bully you are only showing their weakness and
you deserve none of it.

You will be able to accept yourself the way you are and this
is the reason why you will be a much happier person in future.
Say what you really think and fight for the things that you
really like. Not everyone will agree with you but at the end of
the day they don´t change places with you. If you don´t put
a high value on yourself noone else will.

You will find love when you least expect it and I advice to
to enjoy and bottle every second you can spend with your
loved ones. You can´t change the past so it´s best to accept
it. But every day is a new start. With every day you can
write your own story the way you want it to be.

Your style will change a lot because of a site called youtube.
An advice in advance ... stop using foundation that is way too
dark for you ;-).

Believe it or not two things that you didn´t think would ever
happen came true. Take That reunited and you will see then
on their reunioon tour and you will see a Kyllie concert after
being a fan for more than 20 years.

Ps. Don´t hesitate to register at Twitter. You won´t regret it.

Yours
Stephanie

Winterpunch

2011-11-22T08:21:00.000-08:00

Making it yourself warm and cosy is one of the best things
about the cold season. Love drinking a cup of winterpuch.

1 litre of apple juice
1/2 litre of fruit tea
1 cup of orange juice
2 teaspoons of cinnamon
4 soupspoons of honey

My way of saying thank you

2011-10-31T10:15:00.000-07:00

Some people may call makeup fake or something that you don´t need.
For me it was a way of finding back to myself.

When I was 14 there were two things that I was lacking.
One was the right shade of foundation and the other was confidence.
Being constantly bullied at school left me with feeling more than bad
about myself and I was hiding behind way too dark and way too
much makeup to hide my spots and fair skin.

As I got older it got better but I still struggled to feel comfortable
in my own skin. Then one day I was browsing youtube and
suddenly I came accross beauty channels which I didn´t know
existed. The minute I found them I got addicted to them and
couldn´t have estimated the impact they had on me.

With every day I learnt more about different kind of products,
the different ways how you can use them, how you can express
yourself with makeup and the creativity that it can stand for.
Slowly I didn´t only find a totally new style but also back to
the real me before some bullys changed me to a person I never
wanted to be.

Keep up with your wonderful work and this is my way of saying
THANK YOU.

Nachtschwärmer

2011-09-07T10:25:00.000-07:00

Top 5 of songs that never get old

2011-08-02T05:04:00.001-07:00

5 ) Steppenwolf - Born To Be Wild
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7_81PchgI7A

4) Depeche Mode - World In My Eyes
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uSxUvPn3t5Q

3) Otis Redding - Sitting On The Dock Of The Bay
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UCmUhYSr-e4

2) The Doors - Light My Fire
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=flOvM4Z355A

1) Jimmy Hendrix - Purple Haze
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EKaBnJWOUhI

Hottest men during the decades

2011-08-01T06:44:00.000-07:00

50s James Dean

60s Gregory Peck

70s Leonard Nimoy

80s Dave Gahan

90s Robbie Williams

now - Zachary Quinto

My top 5 style icons

2011-07-25T07:23:00.001-07:00

No. 5 - Atomic Kitten

casual style with a modern twist that makes it effortlessly cool

No.4 - Nicole and Natalie Appleton

The ultimate rock chicks to me

No.3 - Audrey Hepburn

Pure class

No.2 - Marilyn Monroe

Endlessly feminine and sensual

No.1 - Dannii Minogue

Individuality mixed with the perfect sense for the current trend.

Always one step ahead.

Blast from the past

2011-07-08T23:04:00.000-07:00

My summer playlist

2011-06-22T13:30:00.000-07:00

Monrose: Hot Summer
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GDbUqDGGtl8

Lambada - Kaoma
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_z8yVuYTDD0

Emma Bunton - Take Me to Another Town
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i6h_h6mcgv8

Christina Aguilera - Falsas Esperanzas
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hcw84mjCY3Q

Chris Rea : On The Beach
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6X0FjlybCqs

Kylie Minogue - Loveboat
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qrx3NLvS-uU

Geri Halliwell - Mi Chico Latino
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MIYF0v0XidU

Reel 2 Real - I Like To Move It
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dyx4v1QFzhQ

Shakira Loca
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g3mumHQsBow&feature=related

Don Henley-The Boys Of Summer
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-5usbS-EHjo

Madonna - La Isla Bonita
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eGhry7qnh4Y

Oma

2011-05-21T07:36:00.000-07:00

Schützend das fremde Kind
Gedanken in die Ferne gesant
Dennoch zuhause im Gewand
Kleider die nie getragen
Ungehörte Stimme
Leises verzagen
Liebe in Ihrem und meinem Herzen
Unverstanden Ihrer Schmerzen
Mutter zweier Kinder
Verbunden durch Tradition, Schicksal, Verzweiflung
Zwei Seelen beraubt Ihrer freien Entfaltung
Verdammt seist du unausschbrechlicher Tyrann
Lass los meine Großeltern und alle Seelen in deinem Bann
Lass Sie frei
Lass Sie gehen
Ich möchte Sie unbekümmert eines Tages wieder sehen

Auf ins Grüne

2011-05-18T09:14:00.000-07:00

Meine Kosmetik Kosmo Lieferung ist heute angekommen :-)

2011-05-18T05:52:00.000-07:00

About being the real you

2011-03-12T10:16:00.001-08:00

What is the real you ? Is it actually possible to be 100% authentic ?
In my opinion the most in touch with their inner persona are children.
Sadly only few people take the time to listen to their inner voice
during the hectics of day to day life. We have so many appointments,
tasks and things to keep in mind that we are what could be described
best as overloaded.

When I was a teenager I wasn´t only struggling with the pressure
of school and being the "well behaved ,big sister". On top of that I was
also lacking of confidence as I was bullied for several years and
saw every other girl or woman as more beautiful and mature as
me. Looking back I would call myself broken and it took years to
put back together all those pieces.

I am happy to be older now as I have learnt quiet some lessons.
If life gets too hectic I simply shut the door and do a yoga dvd,
read a good book, watch my fave comedy or listen to music. To
take such breaks is essential to gather your thoughts and to
regain some energy. I also always try to sleep enough as I simply
can´t function not being rested.

The next lesson I learnt is that we are all the same. Noone is
perfect. Everyone makes mistakes and has flaws. Keep that
in mind everyone the next time someone tries to make you
look bad. We are all just human. This also goes along with looks.
Not to be as critical with myself as I used to be feels a lot better.
I also stopped putting on makeup as a mask to hide behind it
and started to simply have fun with it like my five year old self
that played with the items of my mother.

Life is there to be lived and it´s too short not to try to
lead it the way your inner child would be proud of.

Loving / Hating this week

2011-02-25T00:54:00.000-08:00

Loving

-Looking forward to see Kylie in concert in a few days :-).

-Puddingberliner .... yummy

-Seeing my boyfriend again tonight

- Das Paulus Evangelium by Wolfgang Hohlbein.

ISBN-10: 3548266193
ISBN-13: 978-3548266190

Such a great book. Can´t wait to continue to read tonight.

- My new lipstick Rival deLoop Glöckler in Velvet Rose.
LOVE the colour.

Hating

-The fact that it got cold again..... grrrr we´ve had enough snow

-Karnevalsmusik ..... have to hear it every day at work and
can´t stand it anymore

-Youtube not working the way it shoot. #annoying

-Being invited to many interviews and still not having a job,yet :-(.

Sale

2011-01-14T07:33:00.000-08:00

Due to wanting to reorganize and to having to get my car fixed I am having
a sale.Down below is a list of general things for sale. Simply contact me for
an offer if you are interested. I am also having a big Take That , Kylie,
Atomic Kitten and Spice Girls collection so if you are interested in a specific
item feel free to ask as I might be selling these as well if the offer is right.

Friends Season 6 DVD

Friends Season 7 DVD

Madonna The Confessions Tour DVD

Pink Live From Wembley Arena DVD

Genesis The Way We Walk live in concert DVD

Billie Piper Growing Pains autobioraphy

Atomic Kitten So God So Far the official story ( book / british edition )

Atomic Kitten the official annual ( book / british edition )

Geri HalliwellYoga VHS

Victoria Beckham That Extra Half An Inch ( book / British edition )

Joss Stome Mind Body & Soul Sessions in concert

Robbie Williams Somebody Someday ( book / German edition )

Robbie Williams Feel ( book / German edition )

Undead And Unwed – novel by Mary Janice Davidson

Lipstick Jungle – novel by Candace Bushnell

Shakira Oral Fixation Tour Dvd

Five Invincible Special edition double cd

Blue 4Ever Fans box edition

Destiny´s Child #1s cd

Several magazines with Elizabeth Hurley cover shoot

singles

Pussycat Dolls When I Grow Up

Pussycat Dolls Don´t Cha

Vany Dramaqueen

Juliette Only Uh UH

Westlife When You´re Looking Like That

Beverly Knight Come As You Are

Fergie London Bridge

Nelly Furtado Maneater

Depeche Mode Suffer Well

Lou Bega Mambo No. 5

The Cardigans Lovefool

Fugees Killing Me Softly

"Social networking" in unserer heutigen Zeit

2011-01-08T00:42:00.000-08:00

Ich habe "social networking" 2001 kennengelernt und bin sehr dankbar dafür. Ich zähle nicht nur facebook dazu sondern auch Foren, youtube und twitter. Ich habe sehr viele nette Menschen kennengelernt und durch diese Kontakte habe ich z.B. Mark Owen getroffen und eine TOTP Sendung erlebt. Youtube finde ich sehr kreativ und hat mich schon zu vielen Dingen inspiriert. Viele dieser Mädels geben mir oft einen Motivationsschub,wenn ich ihn brauche. Wenn mir vor fünf oder zehn Jahren jemand über twitter erzählt hätte ,hätte ich ihn ausgelacht lol. Ich hätte nie gedacht ,dass so viele Künstler so aktiv dabei sind und auch mit Fans täglich tweeten. Auch so eine in meinen Augen Ikone,wie Leonard Nimoy ist mit seinen 80 Jahren rege dabei und das schätze ich sehr. Ich kann mir ein Leben ohne Chats ,tweets , videos und PMs gar nicht mehr vorstellen und möchte das auch nicht.

New Year resolutions

2010-12-30T00:00:00.000-08:00

My New Year resolutions :

To be happy,confident and positive.
To stand my ground and to not let anyone put me down.
To stop being stressed out about anything and everything.
To find the job of my dreams.
To loose a few pounds.
To travel to London again.
To keep a diary.
To be more organized.
To laugh as much as I can.
To try to meet Dannii Minogue.
To follow my heart and dreams.

And what are yours ;-) ?

Friends

2010-12-05T00:33:00.000-08:00

Friends ... what are friends ? The people you spent most time with ?
The people youknow the longest ? For me the years showed me
who my real friends are.

It´s the ones that still ask you how you feel and want to know about
your problems although they have a newborn crying baby to take care of.
It´s the ones that make you smile.
It´s the ones that you can call in tears no matter what the problem.
It´s the ones that know what a real nutter you are.
It´s the ones rush to your bed within minutes after you got into hospital.
It´s the ones you would share everything with.
It´s the ones that offer a shoulder after a loss without asking.
It´s the ones that assure you of their support in bad times.
It´s the ones you would do the same for without hesitating a second.

What´s your thoughts on Christmas shopping ?

2010-10-13T07:50:00.000-07:00

What´s your way of shopping for Christmas presents ?

I like to shop for them in November .Can´t stand the last minute

panic a few days before Christmas. I like to take my time and

choose carefully the presents for my loved ones. I also

pack them in November so that I can enjoy the holidays and

don´t feel stressed by them.

Why is it that we always want what we don´t have ?

2010-09-27T06:13:00.000-07:00

We women are a pretty weird species. We always seem to want what we

don´t have.Looking into the mirror even more and more young girls see

what they consider as flaws. Instead of searching for what could be seen as

beautiful or interesting about us a lot of females secretly wish for a change

in their appearance. It starts with the most basic things like hair and the

colour of our skin. While a lot of women in Europe use tanning lotions and

sunbeds to have a darker tone to their skin in India whitening creams are

sold a lot. Women that have straight hair use chemicals to have a permanent

wave while women with a natural curl use flat irons or chemicals as well to

straightentheir hair. The list goes on and on and gets dangerous where

even health is harmed. I was shoecked when I listened to a report on the

radio that every month about 200 people break down in New York

underground because they haven´t eaten for way too long. Sadly a not

so small number of people seem to choose being thin over being healthy.

For the sake of all the young girls that grow up in our beauty and body

obsessed world we should educate them in strenghtening their inner

beauty and persona. The most important thing is to accept yourself.

Makeup and fashion should accentuate the things a woman likes about

herself and not " hide " what shouldn´t be seen. To all the women

out there. Make being happy and healthy your main priority. Cause

we´re worth it ;-).

Age

2010-09-22T23:24:00.000-07:00

LOL I sometimes have to grin about the way people look at age.

Some already start to panic thinking of hitting 30 as they see it as the

sign of not being "young" anymore. In my opinion your year of

birth is just a number. I feel better and more confident now not being

a teen anymore... and I wouldn´t want to go back. Life is there for

living and if you don´t loose your lust for living it you will never be

old. Leonard Nimoy is one of my biggest childhood heroes and with

his 80 years of age he still has the same charm, humour and spark in

his eyes that he used to have. In my opinion this is what it´s about.

Hopefully I will be able to follow his lead and to never get old but

to age with the same passion.

Nostalgia

2010-09-14T22:25:00.000-07:00

I still can´t believe that I have managed to get Kylie tickets for the first

time.I can vividly remember being 5 years old and jumping up and down

on my bed to The Locomotion. I am sure I will start to cry at the concert

as it will bring back so many memories. I can´t help but seeing my fave

songs as milestones in my life. They make me remember events, loved

ones and holidays.I can´t listen to my grandfather´s fave song "Kein

Schwein Ruft Mich An" without thinking of him. It´s sometimes nice

to escape reality and let a song time travel you back.

Shopping together

2010-08-18T03:49:00.000-07:00

I don´t know about you but I have always been shopping on my own.
The advantage was that noone asked me to hurry up and I could do
things in my own time. But lately I have changed my mind. The reason
for that was a shopping trip together with my sister and mother.
Yes you might get the odd look choosing that in your own mind oh so
fab top but the endresult will pay off. If you go together with someone
whose style you trust ( Atention !!! This is the most important thing )
you always have a second opinion if something suits to you. My sister
also has a radar of spotting the cute vest in the corner I haven´t
noticed before ha ha. Last but not least having the influence of
someone else might give your regular style the twist you always
wanted to achieve.

This week I ....

2010-07-24T09:59:00.000-07:00

love ...

a cool breeze ( feels twice as nice after the heatwave lately )
lovely cyberfriends that send you over magazines ;-)
having finally the motivation to go to the gym ( so proud of myself ha ha )
Cupid Boy and Aphrodite ( best tracks on Kylie´s new album )
My neighbours puppy. She´s soooooo cute.
Rayman Raving Rabbids ( I WANT one ha ha )

hate ...

cyber bullying ( don´t you have better things to do ? ? )

youtube guru meeting

2010-07-18T00:56:00.000-07:00

Went to a Guru meeting in Cologne yesterday and loved catching
up with all those lovely girls. There were about (my guess ) 40 of
us and we all had a lot of fun chatting in the sun.

It is funny how people appear differently in pictures and videos or
in real life.

Haha Koko was a lot taller than I thought.

www.youtube.com/user/KokovonKosmo

I didn´t think it would be possible but Reni was even more
beautiful than I already thought she is ;-).

www.youtube/user/xKarenina

Hope to that there will be another meeting as I also
would love to get to know the others a bit more as well :-).

Hello everybody :-)

2010-07-07T01:25:00.000-07:00

I don´t know about you but the worldchampionship is
pretty addictive to me lol. ( Fingers crossed Germany will
win tonight). Every four years I am amazed at the passion
of this game and the talent of the players. Sadly I am still
sobbing about the fact that Beckham and Ballack didn´t
take part. But Phillip Lahm does a pretty ace job as the
new captain in my opinion.

At the moment I am having a hard time to find the right
job for me. LOL the adult world can be pretty difficult
and frustrating at times. Fingers crossed that I will find
something soon as I can´t wait to start someting new and
to have a new challenge.

It´s my birthday in a month and I really look forward to
that. My mum and sister both want to invite me to a
shopping trip as a present and I can´t wait to have a fun
day together with them.

Lately I have been pretty addicted to youtube... ( who´s not lol)
My appreciation for some channels made me think about
doing my own videos but I am still a bit usure about that.
We´ll see if I can make up my mind.

Hugs
S xx

Cosmetics without animal testing

2010-05-25T01:23:00.000-07:00

This morning I got a big shock. I didn´t know how many companys still
use animal testing for their cosmetics. From now on I won´t be
using Loreal anymore :( . I immediately searched for a list for companys
without animal testing and found this one. According to the page this
is the list from Peta.

List of of companys without animal testig

Aloe Vera of America
Amway
Aubrey Organics
Auromère Ayurvedic Imports V
Aveda
Avon
Beauty without Cruelty
Beiersdorf
Biokosma
Bobbi Brown
Body Shop
Annemarie Börlind
Carma Laboratories
Chanel
Clarins
Clinique
Crabtree & Evelyn
Decleor USA
Donna Karan Beauty Company
Dr. Bronner’s
Dr. Hauschka
Estée Lauder
Eucerin
Fernand Aubry
Forever Living Products
Gigi Laboratories
Goldwell

Joe Blasco Cosmetics
Paul Mitchell
Kiehl’s Since 1851
Kiss My Face
KMS
La Prairie
Logona
M.A.C. Cosmetics
Mary Kay
Montagne Jeunesse
Natural Bodycare V
Neways
Nexxus
Nivea
NuSkin International
Oriflame
Origins
Orlane
Prescriptives
Prestige Cosmetics
Revlon
Sebastian International
Sunrider International
Tommy Hilfiger
Ultima II
Urban Decay
Weleda
Wella

I miss London

2010-04-24T23:58:00.000-07:00

Bus Ride through the City of London

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RNozHIUvJcc&feature=related

Loved / hated this week

2010-04-21T22:55:00.000-07:00

loved this week
- Kylie announcing her new alb
- the cutest twitter account ever @cocomcclarnon
- Dannii Minogue speaking up against New Woman
- My mate is going to visit us for the weekend
- It´s going to be my grandfathers birthday on Sunday

hated this week
- volcano ashes as I couldn´t go on a shopping trip to London
- New woman claiming Dannii Minogue would even consider
surgery after the birth of her baby to get slim again. The
media should be more aware of the effect they have on women
and that it makes some choose weight over health.

Photographs and the way we look at them

2010-04-05T05:24:00.000-07:00

I just read an article that a lot of women don´t even dare to
register at websites like twitter or facebook because they believe
they are not "beautiful enough" to show their face to the world.

How sad is that ? In my opinion everyone should feel proud about
who we are and how we look like. Everyone´s got only one life.
It´s sad that a lot of girls and women feel inhibited by feeling the
pressureof todays society to always give away the illusion of being
perfect.

Especially photographs should be memories of a great day and
the fun we had with our friends. The more fun and crazy the
better. I may not look perfect in a lot of pictures of me but I
like to remember with the help of them how happy I was at that
moment.

Breaking childhood dreams

2010-03-25T01:44:00.000-07:00

I am still shocked at the story about Mark Owen. Take That was the first band I ever was a fan of and the guys are my ultimate childhood heroes. I met Mark in 2004 and I honestly thought that he was the sweetest guy I have ever met. I believe that you can see a lot in the eyes of someone and I loved what I saw in his. How could I have been so wrong about him for 16 years ? Seems not all childhood heroes are for real as we all make mistakes.

Wish I could have a pet

2010-03-18T22:58:00.000-07:00

I am missing having a per at the moment. My cat used to be very special and
unique to me. One day he even collected something from the garden that I lost
and brought it back into the house. Of course he wanted to be rewarded for that lol.
Even the vet called him very beautiful. I miss you sweetie and I hope to be a
"mummy" again one day.

A Friend Most True by Wendy Hinson

2010-03-14T00:33:00.001-08:00

I need to know if you’re my true friend,
will you be by my side until the end?
Can I tell you my secrets deep,
and trust them in your heart you’ll keep?
We are neither of us without our flaws,
can you accept mine as I will yours?
I’ll be a shoulder to cry on when you’re blue,
will you be there for me when I need you?
No matter how busy I will make time for you,
if you are busy will you make time for me too?
I will take your hand and comfort your tears,
will you hold me and soothe my fears?
I will give you joy and many warm smiles,
can we share that even across many miles?
I will not forget what’s important to you,
will you remember what’s important to me too?
With you my most favourite things I’ll share,
If only I know do you truly care?
If you can accept me as I do you,
then I will know you are a friend most true.

ickle me :-)

2010-03-09T01:46:00.000-08:00

My God by Natalie Imbruglia .... reminds me of a certain someone ...

2010-01-23T00:39:00.000-08:00

I'm feeling kinda strange
I'm feeling kinda jammed up and outta the way
I know it's all derranged
And nothing's gonna give til I'm outta this place
Looking at the horizon
I wanted to rewind everything is blinding
I'm gonna take your time
I wonder if you float while the sea is rising

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know the way you make me feel
Here we go, here we go, here we go, here we go again

My god your face is so beautiful
My god I see you so clearly
If I could stay with you
Oh my god I'd give my soul there's nothing else
My god don't you leave me here

You're looking for a flower
You're looking for a flower but you find a tree
I'm looking for a river
And suddenly an ocean is washing over me

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know the way you make me feel
Here we go, here we go, here we go, here we go again

My god your face is so beautiful
My god I see you so clearly
If I could stay with you
Oh my god I'd give my soul there's nothing else
My god don't you leave me here

I wanted to know you
Wanted to see you
Wanted to feel you
Shoulda believed you
Wanted to hold you
Wanted to show you
Wanted to be you, be you

My god your face is so beautiful
My god I see you so clearly
If I could stay with you
Oh my god I'd give my soul there's nothing else
My god don't you leave me here

Be aware ...

2010-01-10T04:19:00.000-08:00

I feel with Jenny Frost and her family.

I pray that there will be a cure to cancer soon.

Way too many loved ones were already lost to this evil desease.

The only way to protect your family and yourself is

to go for regular screenings and check-ups.

Be aware !

This week I am loving ...

2010-01-08T00:45:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/user/bubzbeauty

A very cute and inspiring youtube channel that I can
recommend to every shopaholic and make-up addicted girl like me ;-).

My personal pride and joy on my desk :-)

2010-01-03T04:59:00.000-08:00

Pleased to see

2009-12-29T01:37:00.000-08:00

http://www.thesun.co.uk/sol/homepage/showbiz/bizarre/2786585/Aloud-Sarahs-glowing-school-report.html

I always thought of Sarah Harding as an intelligent one but I am pretty impressed
by the school results that The Sun show on their website. Nice to see a female celeb
that is both sexy and smart. Prove once more that you can be both.

New Years resolutions

2009-12-27T05:23:00.000-08:00

The top 5 things I want to do in 2010:

1 ) Visit London again
2 ) Loose at least 10 KG
3) Have as much fun as possible
4 ) Try to meet Gary Barlow , kylie and Dannii
5 ) To follow my instincts and not anyone else´s opinion

I´m loving....

2009-08-02T10:24:00.000-07:00

Christina Aguilera´s music channel

http://www.iheartradio.com/cc-common/news/sections/special/christinaaguilera.html

Child Pageants

2009-08-02T03:02:00.000-07:00

I just watched the Tyra show about child pageants.

In my opinion they should let the girls be girls and let them

play in the playground. Growing up already being that focused

about your looks and winning no matter what is surely not

doing these young children any favour. Nothing can replace

your childhood and nothing is worth it having to grow up too fast too soon.

http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=Child+Pageants+the+tyra+show&search_type=&aq=f

Songbird

2009-07-19T14:02:00.000-07:00

Wish I could be a songbird
Putting a smile on your face
Singing songs of a better place
Wish my voice would be loud and clear.
Everybody would listen up
Far or near
Listening to the song and melody
I´m only humming for you

Wish I could be a songbird
Fragile being protected in your hands
Fond of life and cheering just for you
That´s what I would do
Wish my voice would have the power to change this world
Everybody would live in peace and harmony
That´s the place where I want to be

I know these lines are simple and tride
But I hope you like them at second sight
Cause I´d love to be your songbird
And this is my song

What a beautiful idea

2009-07-12T08:01:00.000-07:00

http://operationbeautiful.com/

Beauty is about the aura that lies around you and it is in the
eyes of the beholder to take the time to see it... so simply feel great about
yourself as you deserve it.

Swinging London Town

2009-07-06T22:50:00.001-07:00

I had a great time in London. On my flight from Frakfurt to London I had already a great conversation with a lovely Canadian lady. After checking into the hotel I immediately hit the vintage stores and had of course fish and chips for dinner in a pup lol. The next day I started with a walk through Hyde Park and went shopping at Oxford street. What I didn´t know was that there was the Pride Of London gay rights protest as well. I thought this was a great way to show their opinion and a lot of fun to watch as well.

My latest addiction

2009-06-28T00:56:00.000-07:00

LOL I just found a new pc game for me .Plants vs zobies is so addictive.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r95TAEmnPKE&feature=related

Puppy Love

2009-06-22T22:27:00.000-07:00

The parents of my boyfriend and their mates both have a new puppy.

Aren´t they cute ?

I need a holiday

2009-06-05T23:51:00.000-07:00

I am stressed out because of work at the moment and on top of that I miss London.

I really hope that I will be at least able to have a trip in summer. My ideal break would

be a few days of shopping in London and then getting the next plane for a week of

sun in Mallorca. I seriously need some new outfits from New Look and a tan lol.

List of things I want to do in my life and don´t want to miss out...

2009-02-21T23:30:00.000-08:00

1. To visit Australia
2. To see Kylie , Dannii Minogue and Mark Owen in concert
3. To marry
4. To be a mother one day
5. To have a romantic trip to Paris with my partner
6. To be in a band ( and if it´s just to play in our living room for the sake of making music )
7. To find a job that I love
8. To visit London as often as possible
9. To meet Dannii Minogue and the girls of Atomic Kitten
10. To spend so much time and have so much fun as possible with my loved ones

Photoshooting I did back in 2007

2009-02-11T11:34:00.000-08:00

I was curious how it is to do a phtotoshooting so I did one back

in 2007... and I enjoyed every second of it ;-).

Already look forward to Valentine´s Day

2009-02-09T08:33:00.000-08:00

My boyfriend and I are together for two years now and I can´t wait to

have a romantic dinner with him on Valentine´s Day next Saturday :-).

HI everybody :-)

2009-02-07T23:20:00.000-08:00

My full name is Stephanie Ursula Jost. I am 25 years old now and born in Kaiserslautern / Germany. I am a totally hectic but very loving person... and be careful if you ever meet me as I love to cuddle everyone all the time :-) .

My fave albums are: Impossible Princess - Kylie Minogue, Appleton - Everything´s Eventual , Robbie - Life Through A Lens, Mark Owen - Green Man, Christina Aguilera Stripped Sugababes - Three Dannii - Neon Nights, Natalie Imbruglia - Left Of The Middle

My favourite book is Learning to Fly by Victoria Beckham because I love her dry sense of humour. My fave sport is football ( no... watching Becks...sorry Victoria )

My favourite city is London as I have spent some of the best times of my life there. (meeting Mark Owen and meeting up with other fans, seeing Take That in concert and spending a week full of fun with my mate there...every time I go there is special )

I admire the confidence and style some female celebs have like Dannii ,Kylie , Atomic Kitten,
Christina Aguilera,All Saints and Girls Aloud.